Gone To Sleep

New favorite song!  I feel like maybe Moby and Kelli Scarr were channeling my thoughts when they wrote this song together.  This one will be a favorite forever with me!  Every word conveys my feelings at this time in my life, now, seven months after Lisa, my "sun" has gone my "light", has "gone to sleep".

Follow this link and watch the second or third video first - after you see the goofy photograph of the guy with a cloud in place of his head.  You can follow along with the lyrics below too:

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=126476733

Thin light - escape
We've run fast and we wait
All the time we waste
All the days replaced


Somewhere there's a Sunday in the Fall
Where everything you love is safe and warm
Where everything was right
But I'm never going home... (2x)


Thin light is long
The life I knew is gone
It's nothing that I've ever seen
Darker than it's ever been


Somewhere there's a Sunday in the Fall
Where everything you love is safe and warm
Where everything was right
But I'm never going home...
-repeat

But I'm never going home...


All the time we wait
All the time we waste

All the days replaced (2x)


Somewhere there's a Sunday in the Fall
Where everything you love is safe and warm
Where everything was right
But I'm never going home...
-repeat

The sun is down
The lights have gone to sleep
I never knew the dark would be so deep
Somewhere you are warm

But I'm never going home..

Now watch the first video which tells about the creation and inspiration for the song.  Then read again my comments below.
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I feel like the guy in the photograph that inspired the song too!  My head is a storm cloud of anger, confusion, you name it...  The briefcase to me represents the rest of me, mostly my work.  The trench coat and gloves are keeping my emotions, thoughts, feelings inside while at the same time preventing the outside world from intruding...  keeping more hurt from entering.  Fall in the foreground and middle-ground forest represents the end of a chapter in my life, but I see Spring in the background - through the trees.

I didn't recognize any of this at first listen and first glance!  The first time I listened to the song, I really liked the music, but I thought the lead vocalist's voice was too raw and uneven.  Too pitchy if that makes sense.  Then I really listened to the words and found the connection I could make to them.

I had similar feelings for the photograph.  I had seen the photograph many years ago and I thought it looked contrived and silly.  The cloud looks too obviously "Photoshopped" in.  And again I found more meaning in it's content as I looked at it again.  I didn't find hardly any of the meaning until I was simultaneously looking at the photograph and typing my thoughts about it in the paragraph above.